see that?

i saw that in bianca gonzalez' page. though it's a cliche, it's easier said than done. probably only less than half of those who say it believe that it is true. and only half of that half have done or is doing it. me? i wanna be in the half of that half. "wanna be".. means im not yet there :|

gray

maybe im way too emotional that nobody gets to notice it. not even my blog. i change layouts very often. sometimes it's colorful and sometimes it's dull. but the content? it's stil the same. there's no emotion in it. you cannot decipher what i was thinking when i wrote every entry in here. just like this one. this is just one of those. can you tell that that i felt guilty because i was stalking on someone before i wrote this? no, you cannot. can you tell that i have been/ am / will be crying until i can stand up for what i want? no, you cannot. my friends always tell me to update my blog. but i dont do it often because i dont want to rant and to whine and to complain. i also dont want to shout to the world my happiness, my sadness, my frustrations, my admirations, my fandomness which are normally the subjects of blogs. i dont want to do anything with my emotions but to keep it to myself.

now, i want change. char! haha! nabuang nah!

the receptionist called me and gave me my new sked.. so these are the times that i'll be out of reach (unless i call in sick which i love doing)

MON - WED 9PM - 7AM
THURS OFF
FRI 9PM - 7AM
SAT 9PM - 5AM
SUN OFF

but i'll be resigning in a month or so.. >.<

lalelilolu

...me pera ka nga, wala ka namang kasama.

nah! it's their loss.not mine! i'd better go back to sleep then go to hell..errr.. work later.

Maybe it's time for me to learn the art of forgetting people coz it seems like everbody's so good at it now.

wala ka ngang kasama, me pera ka naman... ^___^