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Aug 5, 2009

dear diary

"it was just a simple request and yet you could not do it. how can i weigh things when you ask too much and give a little too less? how can we call it fair when you can't even give a little while i can give too much?"
--from the diary of a whimpy kid

wow galing naman ng kid! tsktsk ang buhay ay sadyang ganyan.suliranin di mapigilan. itanim mo lng sa iyong puso, kaya mo yaaaaan! hihi.

life is a choice. you can choose fair or you can choose big. im choosing fair! wahahahahahahaha out nagma-mindset! :P

Aug 1, 2009

burn out

is being tested emotionally

is not going to fight back just yet

is giving herself a break

is tired of too much thinking

is not being rational until she can be...

is going to pen down her thoughts whenever she can..but not now..not yet

Jul 30, 2009

yayay...

aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh EMOTIONAL STRESS! TT_____________TT

if there's too much of these in life, who would want to live!?! anti-depressants, where are yousssssssssssss??????

strike two for this year TT____TT i just hope these would all make me become better..and not worse. sana next yr naman ung next :'(



*kung ang lahat ay may katapusan, itong paglalakbay ay makakarating din sa paroroonan...

Jul 26, 2009

some thoughts

It's a sad reality how people sometimes think less of others. It's the price others have to pay for believing that people won't do that to them. But given the capacity and not doing so is an entirely different thing. It's a noble thing to do.


hahaay.. i didn't know men are worst than i thought.

Jul 19, 2009

finally! i found peace of mind in watching gossip girl ^___^ weird but i couldn't care less.this is all i need.



* the sun will come out tomorrow..like your boyfriend did today - Gossip girl to jenny, after everyone found out her bf is gay.


**ahh di ko maisip na masisira na blog ko sa ads! cge lng..all for the money. i'll be transferring to a new site soon.

because i can't sleep

i've been wondering why i stopped counting how long i've been at work. the post i had was my 11th month at work. i just had my 15th so that's four posts behind.

is it because i'm enjoying what i do now? is it because i'm already counting how many days left before i leave work? or is it because my mind is too preoccupied of something else?

i've been wanting to leave work. but i can't leave just like that. i don't want to leave just because of some lame reasons i cannot handle. i am "feeling"things.i should be rational and not emotional dammit! i should see things like adults do.

HAPPY 15TH dessie!


**titingnan ko kung pwde ako mgkapera sa blog na 'to.. madudumihan na ang blog ko huhuhu cge lng..all for the money and boredom.. ill just delete everything later..

wishing just the same

i wish i can wish that i won't be wishing for friends. that i can watch movies alone, go home alone, go to the mall alone, travel alone, with nothing else to mind but myself.

i wish i won't be waiting for replies. that i can change my numbers every time, that i won't be calling people whenever they don't reply, that i can switch off my phone whenever i want.

i wish i know how to forget people. that if they don't talk to me for some time, i'll easily forget them.

i wish i won't ever feel like i'm being taken for granted. that if they need me, i'll be right there and if they don't i'll disappear just like that.

i wish i don't value relationships that much. that i won't mind if you're my friend now and tomorrow you'll be a totally different person. that i won't mind when people just come and go.

i wish i don't have friends na nang-iiwan sa ere. yung they'll be there whenever they don't have anyone elso to go with, but if they'll find someone else, they wouldn't mind who you'll be with, what would you do..

i wish i'm not wishing for constant friends. that i can be with just anyone who can be there for me.

i wish i can wish that i am a loner. that i won't want to be around people but myself.


...JUST BECAUSE I WANTED SOOOOOOO BADLY TO WATCH HALF-BLOOD PRINCE ON THE FIRST WEEK!!!! and i don't want to watch it alone..because it would be a lot more fun if i watch it with friends. THAT FRIGGING HARRY POTTER THAT'S NOTHING MORE THAN JUST CRAP! i've been wallowing all day for just that!?!! it was worst than i expected! hahaaay life is harsh TT____TT

Apr 25, 2009

A-YEAR-AFTER.. the prequel

fyi, a-year-after celebrates my 1 year @work. no big deal ^____^

ok, this is supposed to be posted few weeks back. april 8 to be exact. but for one obvious reason, i was in manila for a week, i wasn't able to. so i should have done this when i arrived but i was sick for a week.not to mention i was too lazy make a post.

yesterday was a BIG day.i was in a fist fight! haha joke! it was one of those days when all my guards are down and suddenly i breakdown. it was not the ordinary though coz i confronted someone which i don't normally do.and it wasn't the ordinary because the tears already started to flow while i was still in the jeepney.but i managed to go to the mall and watched slumdog millionaire (yeah! it's one great movie! though i wasn't paying much attention three-fourths of the movie)and finally managed to settle things out before going home.

it was one big day i will never forget. thanks to the people who were a part of it. and who weren't.

Mar 29, 2009

movie marathon

The sun itself sees not till heaven clears

i've watch Prince and Me nth times already and i can't believe i'm watching it again for several times tonight! iv'e been watching this since college hahaha! but im in denial that it is by far my favorite feel-good movie. nah luke mably just looks oh-so-good in this movie hehehe really fit for a real-life prince. i can't seem to know why i keep watching this movie. and there's this soundtrack that i like. a really nice song. not that i can relate :P

here, check it out

I hope that I don't fall in love with you - hootie and the blowfish (originally by tom waits)



Well I hope that I don't fall in love with you
'Cause falling in love just makes me blue,
Well the music plays and you display your heart for me to see,
I had a beer and now I hear you calling out for me
And I hope that I don't fall in love with you.

......

I can see that you are lonesome just like me,
And it being late, you'd like some some company,
Well I turn around to look at you, and you look back at me,
The guy you're with has up and split, the chair next to you's free,
And I hope that you don't fall in love with me.

Mar 8, 2009

11th

11th month @ work.. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaw that was fast! 1 month more and i'll fulfill my promise to stay for at least a year.

the previous weeks were miserable (not work-related though). i am being tested emotionally. i failed, i cried, i stumbled and fall..and if there's one thing i learned, that is, giving your trust would also mean giving them the power to hurt you, and giving your trust doesn't mean earning their trust as well.


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yesterday, i watched "shopaholic". it was fun. it's about a woman who shops to make herself feel better. shopping gives her a different kind of excitement that she tends to forget about her worries and when she's done shopping, she would feel down again and that would make her want to shop more.

yesterday, i also went to church, which, in other words, means that my thoughts are too deep for me to comprehend that i had to go to church to have peace of mind for a while and reconsider my thoughts afterwards.

Feb 20, 2009

self-talk

lord, isa2x lng po! wag naman po sabay2x TT_____TT break it to me gently hehehehe mejo slow learner po kasi ako plus stubborn pa!

aaaahhhhhhhh ik, mag online ka naaaaaaaaaah!


I know it hurts
For what it's worth
It can only get better

Feb 8, 2009

10th

10 months @ work...and counting..cheers! to hopefully, another 10 months more! ^___^

Feb 3, 2009

sobrang saya ng araw ko ***** grabeh! naiinis ako sa sobrang saya! hahaha meron ba nun? naiinis sa sobrang saya? loko ka talaga dessiemae! pano kasi me mga naiinis na ata sa mukha ko. sa sobrang inis, di na ata sila makapagsalita.. (bka nman stunning ang tawag dyan..hindi inis! stunning presence nyahaha! parang dyosa)

stunning: adj, Causing or capable of causing emotional shock or loss of consciousness; Of a strikingly attractive appearance.

ooohhhhh biruin mo, causing emotional shock daw oh! loss of consciousness di daw! (aba magtago ka na dessiemae! lagot ka! ) masyado na bang maganda?? di na keri ng powers nyo? sabihin nyo lng, papalitan ko nung kay betty..pwde rin kay nikolas! pero pano nga nila sasabihin kng di na nila kaya magsalita?? (ano barrrnnnn mag isip ka nga) oo nga nman noh?? pano ba un? kelan pa kaya nila makayanan magsalita?? bka nman me mga araw na di ka stunning..naku iilang araw lng un.. hahaay..kung alam ko lng na ganito kahirap ang buhay ng me stunning presence, aba, kebz kung mahirap! kakayanin ko! hahahahaha *nabuang nah..bow!

me nasagap pa akong balita kanina..me kinasal, me nabuntis, me naghiwalay..saya! talagang makulay ang buhay! pero ako, ayoko ng sobrang kulay..sobra pa sa stunning aabutin ko nyan. gusto ko isang kulay lng. pwedeng pink, pwde rin blue. wag lang puti..chaka black..kasi di naman kulay un (aba beri good! naalala pa ang hum 2 lesson nila!)..ung kinasal, kita ko ang peechurs! wawww ibang klase! parang kasal talaga! totoong totoong totoo talaga! (hahaha!) pero di ako invited eh. bawal daw stunning dun..bka di pa matuloy ang kasal (LOLLL!). ung nabuntis, di ko pa kilala. chismis lng un. ung mga lokong walang magawa, sa wakas, me nagawa na rin! (congrats!) gumawa ng chismis! (congrats ulit! big hit eh). ung naghiwalay, malungkot. hahaha! (me malungkot bang nakatawa???)...talagang napakakulay! ako, stunning parin, walang pinagbago hahahah!

at natawa daw ako dito! (haba pa ng nick ng isa hahaha!)

pinkie: sissy, u there?
pinkie: its me. pinkie
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: yh onee
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: srry i was watching some drama
pinkie: oohhh what drama is that?
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: boys be4 flower
pinkie: i see..korean??
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: yh it's gud
pinkie: yh..ill watch that when i have time
pinkie: ******
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: woa
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: i wanna c it
pinkie: hahaha bt dont get frustrated, k?
pinkie: he's not brad pitt hahahaa
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: y?
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: haha
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: nw..i wanna c onee
pinkie: mybe ull think he's brad pitt or some sort
pinkie: hahaha
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: haha
pinkie:*******
.........
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: which 1 iz it onee
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: omo..jus as i thought
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: woa..he'z so cute
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: gud choice onee
pinkie: *****
pinkie: ahahaha
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: omo..ma broda in law iz pretty hansome
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: make him urs
pinkie: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
pinkie:just as u thot?
pinkie: really?
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: yh
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: omo bt didn't noe he wud cut ma xpectation
pinkie: hahaha i told u..he's not brad pitt
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: no i mn
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: he iz more gud den i imagined
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: haha
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: n brad pit ain't dt great
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: onee..
pinkie:haha mybe ur thinking hs worse
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: no
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: i told u he'z cute n hanzome
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: do u tnk i lie
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: u tnk as well dun u
pinkie: well i think he's cute
pinkie: hahahaha
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: yup
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: onee..m off 4r lunch k?
... So I guess I c diz 's d end no longer a luver bt only a fren n yes I can say, dt m alrite bt still onto u m holdin tight....: cya..lata

Feb 1, 2009

sk8ter boi

ME murdering SK8R BOI by AVRIL LAVIGNE (recorded via singsnap)

AS REQUESTED BY BOTZ

para daw kay BOY-P
na hindi naman mukhang sk8r boi..
mukhang malinis nman tingnan.
oh bka nman mukha lng ang malinis!? hehehe :P
pero sino ba si BOY-P????? hhhmmmmm





*** i will mishooo botz (asuuuuuuuuuus mabait lng ako ngayon kaya wag kang magsaya!!! hahaha)

Jan 26, 2009

sing galing!

here's how i would sound in a duet... just so you know..hehehe

ME and KUYA singing CRAZY FOR YOU by MADONNA (recorded separately via singsnap. that's why you'll notice sometimes it's not sync)





***amishoooo kuya! ^____^

shoemaker

just few weeks ago, i bought another pair of high-heeled shoes. it's not new to me because i buy a new pair at least once a month. hhmmm maybe you're thinking i am a huge fan of shoes and all i do is collect all sorts of styles..hahaha! how i wish i can do that! but no, i don't have that much money to spare!

my mom always tells me that i walk like a bulldozer or some sort and that's the main reason why i need a new pair of shoes every month hihi. i dunno if im just always unlucky to buy the low-resistant-to-a-bulldozer-feet kind of shoes LOLLLLLLLLLL

buying a new pair of shoes is not as easy as you think it is. well, not for me! i spend days just finding the right kind of shoes. im always having a hard time finding the right fitting and sizing. different brands of shoes have different fitting. i also consider the color of the shoes. it should match my office outfit. i most of the time consult buying tips and guides just to get the right kind of shoes that i want. good thing i was able to buy a new one.. a black normal-heeled shoes that just fits my kind of style

Jan 11, 2009

moments

last night, i had some intimate moments with alcohol LOLLLLLL

for the first time, it made my world spinning literally, i vomitted mcflurry + fried chicken + alcohol a few times and it made me want some more! MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORE! HAHAHAHA! :P


CHEERS TO MORE REAL REAL-WORLD EXPERIENCES! ^____^


sorry i was supposed to stay sober for 2009 hihi

Jan 10, 2009

for everyone

**requests are accepted..just leave a comment =)

Realize - John Nathaniel version
Download: MF


The Middle - Jimmy Eat World
Download: MF

Jan 9, 2009

9th

oohhhh lala! time flies so fast! just a month ago, i was whining about how my eighth month went..now im writing about my 9th wheeeeew!

i was supposed to post this yesterday but i was so exhausted physically and emotionally that i didnt have much strength to do so.

yesterday was a milestone. one of my crazy friends just got married! and surprisingly, i was informed just 2 days before yesterday! AND we were told, or should i say REQUIRED to wear a dress that has the same color as her motif purple plum chuchu whatever!

well, everything turned out just fine..and my friend seems happy, though there were a few guysssss who were not so happy with the oh-so-sudden event :)

now, im contemplating if i should take the Masters in Information Systems at UP Open University hhmmm...that would mean lesser laag time hahaha LOLLLL such a hard decision!

Jan 1, 2009

new year's resolution

my new year's resolution would be:

talk less
eat less
drink less
spend less


listen more
exercise more
save more
explore more
express more
open up more
learn more


hehe mejo mahirap noh? pero cge lng.. ill try.. ^___^
before the dawn breaks and another day will start, let me thank the Lord because the previous year has been one of the greatest and one of the most colorful years of my life!

thank you also for the people who have been part of my 2008!

may this year be as colorful if not more colorful than the previous one.

KAMPAIIIIII~!!! to a more confident, more outspoken, more God-fearing, more responsible ME!


WELCOME 2009!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^__________________^