OFFLINE.. will be back by end of january i gez..

i used to be frightened and scared to try,
of things i don't really understand why..

-- until now, i still am

Indeed Christmas is a time to remind me that my life, like this blog, is a mess.

New Year to remind me that there's another year to mess up.

MERRY CHRISTMAS and a HAPPY NEW YEAR! kampai~

i want to blog but there's nothing to blog about! well other than the fact that i have flu, nothing interesting is happening to my life LOLLLL

maybe ill try blogging the ryo-chan way! hihi i love to talk nonsense just like him haha.. seems like we're close friends, ayt? haha :P

hhmmm the ryo way of blogging starts here --

let me introduce my friends.. i'll start with ella.

ella.. under my umbrella, ella, ella, ella, hey hey hey

haha sorry im a bit tired now.. and our internet sucks.

let me do it some other time. ^^

nishikido ryo

hihihi i finally got that vid of ryo-chan singing Paraiso *woot woot* it took me yearsssss to find that! LOL they'll thank me for this! im pretty sure! wahahahaa

and believe me, im not the only one who said this but he kinda looks like tackey! but he looks more like victor basa LOLLLL

    
ryo :)                       tackey :)

ASIAN IDOL

darn i remember seeing the ad on abc 5 that they're having asian idol.. now it's all over and poor me for not being able to watch it! i can't even watch it on youtube and on veoh! daaaaaaarn!

and so HADY MIRZA won! hihi kuya voted for him and of course for mau marcelo coz he was thinking that hady is less likely to win coz he's not the worst and he's not the best contestant too. unfortunately, a LOT of people were thinking of that too! and UNFORTUNATELY kuya is in singapore so that's one vote added to the very little population of singapore! T__T (they did some sort of normalization or getting the ratio or something like that with respect to the population of the country)

if they actually did it like the world idol voting scheme, mau marcelo could have won :( in world idol, you can't vote for your own country so that would mean they wouldn't need to get the ratio of the votes and the population of the country anymore..

hihi don't get me wrong.. hady mirza was my bet in singapore idol. siya lang yung magaling dun sa mga hindi magaling eh HAHAHHAA!

now after that shock that MCR was in singapore (they're so strict with the emos and the screamos that they even edited MCR's "Welcome to the Black Parade" to tone down the lyrics and the "rockness" of the song and all you can hear are *tooot* and *silence* to replace all the profanities in the song so can you imagine how many *tooot* are there? and it's not even a rock song! ohh well, that's what i heard) for a concert, now they're coming to pinas.. WAAAAAHT?? aha, i was so sleepy last night that i had to sleep with that idea and wake up after 15 hours. haha i haven't slept this long since i can remember.LOL


MCR in PINAS:
http://www.mb.com.ph/issues/2007/12/13/ENTR20071213111433.html READ AND FEEL SORRY FOR ME COZ I CAN'T COME

i've had too much spaghetti this week yet im having another one now. i never get tired eating spaghetti like i never get tired complaining how useless this place is! darn i wanna be somewhere else but here!

happy 2 months ^____^

yaaaay im in my second month of being a fan girl! DBSK and NewS still rockzzz! i think it's junsu's birthday tomorrow LOLLLL haha

few more were added to my list...

Tackey aka Takizawa Hideaki coz i started watching Strawberry on the Shortcake
Micky Yoochun of DBSK.. well i've always liked him but i like jaejoong more XD
Big Bang. I'm loving two of their songs Lies and Last Farewell
Yamapi. I'm yet to watch Nobuta wo Produce. he's really cute but i can always see ella making faces when i say that :P
Matsujun. haha I like him but there's one thing i don't like about him. don't ask me what it is. i wouldn't tell you :P

haha yesterday i bought two new shorts (not that short though :P) and the other day, i bought a pair of pants and sandals wheeeeee christmas is indeed in the air! and i love my mom soooooo much for giving me money that i feel like i dont need work anymore hahahaha everyday seems like a holiday for meeeee ~yaaaaaay

now all i need is a new bag, a new shirt and a pair of havaianas! haha perti pa nakong saway sauna kay murag spartan lang iyang ichura hahaha i can still remember what i told kuya.

kuya: dem, si olan nagpalit ug havaianas diri para sa iyang mama. mahal kaayu
me: nyak dili ko ganahan ana! murag spartan man lang nah. tnawa ang mga tao karon confident na kaayu mag tsinelas maski dili havaianas ilang tsinelas hahaha
kuya: lagi murag tanan tao naga tsinelas nah :P

OMG now i want one too! hahaha i still can't find a design yet but i want one! ipanema has cute designs too! :D yaaaay im starting to like slippers yet again! kuyaaaaaaaaa, i want oneeeeeeeeeeeeeee! hihihihi

finally, i've decided to post all my fangirl-related stuffs in my LJ account coz i haven't written anything there yet haha. i use it solely for leeching latest mp3s and mvs. might as well post something there to thank those people who have screwed my life of all those fandomness! tama ka nga ella, they'll eat your brains out until it's too late to find out that you don't have brains anymore hahaha in short, nakaka bobo! :P

TACKEY is damn hot!!!!! sooo hot! hahaha kapila na nako ni gisulti! im hating you forever jenai. leche ka ikaw nag introduce sa ako anang Strawberry on the Shortcake! :P

the friend that never was..DO NOT READ! :P

THE MOST NONSENSE POST EVER! SORRY...

haha drama ang title ahhh! salamat sa coke, dili pa ko makatulog! waaaaaa gusto ko mag scribble scribble chuchu..

ay uy nibalik nasad ta ani na storya! nag cge nlng! mawala, mubalik, mawala, mubalik waaaaaa hehe maimagine na nako ang reaction nila ella and vivian and jenai! im expecting a different reaction from wet2x kasi bading sya hahaha bading ka wet! hahahaa peace!

hala hala nabuang nako! hehehe lele nah. kasalanan mo to wet! ikaw nagsabi na pumunta ako dun hahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahah

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh someone talk to meeeeeeeeeeee hehe

si wet2x walang kwenta! nasa net cafe kaya di ako makatawag. di marunong mag ym. walang load. tech moron! hahahahaha

walay pulos man ning blog uy! dili man nimo pwede masulat tanan uy. fake na blog! fake! murag among pc, fake! murag sya, fake! hahahaha fake man ka uy! no, seriously, you're fake. im just making you real but you're actually fake! sabi ni ella, di ka daw buang-worthy. buang lang daw ka hahahah

wla na man koy matype uy hehe. mga english nlng akong maisip char! hehehe lingaw cguro kung korean akong isulat noh. bongga kaayu hahaha vowels pa lang man akong namemorize uy haahahha magchat nlng ko uy haha

christmas wish list

darn im so tired! i've been out the whole day and i was out yesterday too! im so bored and tired but my eyes isn't sleepy yet so i'll just create my christmas wish list ^___^

MY ALL-I-WANT-FOR-CHRISTMAS LIST:

1. black MacBook (why use windows when you can have mac!)

2. U300 cellphone with the name ANYBAND on it (not SAMSUNG but ANYBAND!) - this is quite impossibe coz anyband phones are only available in korea but they use CDMA there and not GSM

3. AADBSK 1 & 2 DVD NewS DVD and DBSK/NewS/arashi mags (no one in his right mind would give me this! i know! )

4. a pc that's working! (if i can't have the mac book, at least i want a pc that works!!!) working == a pc wherein i can watch vids on youtube, CR or even play vids in media player. yeaaah i can't do that in my shitty pc now!

5. a very big bear or pillow (hahaha this is less expensive than the others! ma, i want a bear that is 1-meter tall or taller hahahaha wish mo lang dem! )

6. more real and "visible" friends (awwww... pano kasi lahat sila imbisibol! kung di mo itext, di magrereply. me iba pa nga kahit itext mo, ayaw magreply! ayoko ng ganoooooon! gusto ko yung kagaya kay vivi, wet2x or ella! hehe )

7. i don't want liking that someone anymore! (hahahaha ito pinakamatinding wish kooooooooooooooo! it keeps coming back! i swear ella, vivi and wet2x, nawala na sya pero bumalik pramis! hahaha pramis jud! hehe hahaaaaay ohh well)

SAENGIL CHUKHA HAMNIDA ELLA!

HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY ELLA! *hugzzzzzz* *mwaaaaaah* ^_________^

to my mamee who's just a year older than me:

yaaaay ella 22 ka na! ibig sabihin, di ka na 21! LOLLLLL happy ako kasi naging mamee kita. kasi alam ko mabait ka. chaka pretty pa. chaka matalino chaka magaling kumanta at marami pang iba XD kulang nlng sayo boypren haha pero alam ko di mo na kelangan ng boypren kasi masaya ka na at marami ka namang friends. basta dapat happy tayo always. di na dapat tayo iiyak at madedepress kasi kung kaya nila, kaya din natin. alam ko we'll go a long way kasi mabait naman tayo. dapat lang maging patient tayo, diba? kahit saan ka man dalhin ni lord, friends pa rin tayo basta me internet chaka cellphone hehe. labyu mameeee ^____^

shinhwa in north korea

yaaaaaaay im not on blog-leave anymore! ^____^ im kinda sick. i have tonsilitis and cough. the best combination ever! haha when i cough, feel like my tonsils would come out x_x coz im having dry cough.. ohh well other than that, im doing fine. im not in the verge of ranting anymore that's why im back to blogging =D



my first ever shinhwa post! =D i saw this vid while searching for dbsk vids to download. (for the record, i havent listened to any shinhwa song. i only like shin hye sung's the island). it's a performance of Shinhwa in *drum roll* *tananannan* in North Korea =D well, they're from the south so performing in the north is something else! haha it was really something else considering the reaction of the audience =D Shinhwa is a well-known boyband all over asia and even in the west and to be accepted this way by the audience must be sooooo memorable for them XD see the vid below to know what i mean hekhek this happened just last year, 2006 i think. the men are wearing suit and the women are in their traditional korean costume. i dont know much about their history but the north probably would want to preserve the korean culture while the south accepted more of the western influence. (btw, baby vox performed there too) the songs performed were handpicked by the north korean party to especially check on the lyrics.



i wonder what they [audience] were told before the performance. no offense meant but i find their reaction weird. i always believe that music can break any physical boundaries but this video proved me wrong :( but iv'e read that north korea is a communist country and they don't really like western music. they only have a certain genre which is the traditional korean music.

maybe the audience thought:
1.) ohh that's Shinhwa! they're not that special. they just dress the same with our men!

2.) errr i can dance better than that!

3.) haha he's wearing a suit and a cap! what kind of fashion is that! O____O

4.) they should'nt move so fast. i cant see their pretty faces LOLLL

5.) DAMN IM TOO LOST FOR WORDS! THEY'RE GREAT! I CAN'T EVEN MOVE MYSELF! NOT EVEN MY HANDS! =D

SHINHWA PERFORMS "PERFECT MAN" IN NORTH KOREA



SORRY I REALLY WANTED TO POST THIS =D BOA and MICKY LOOK GOOD TOGETHER ^___^ thanks theresa.. i've stolen ur pic XD im still asking theresa what function is this that they attended hehe it's the Korean Culture Industry Policy meeting last nov 26. they were to choose a korean ambassador. yunho and some SuJu were there too.. boa was sitting between micky and yunho XD btw, micky looks hot with that hair!

happy 1 month ^___^

it's been exactly one month since i started fangirl-ing NewS and DBSK!

wheeeeee HAPPY ONE MONTH TO MEEEEE!

i feel so sorry for myself that i couldnt even make avatars or post pictures or upload vids of them to commemorate this momentous event. i hope they will forgive me LOLLLL my pc is taking its break and all my files are there.. i hope i would be able to recover them all or else ill randomly kill anyone ~haha just kidding! there's no one to blame for that unexpected thing to happen but my shitty hard disk.. my hard disk didnt have the initiative to tell me before hand so that i can backup all my files T___T

ohh well.. back to DBSK-NewS.. my fandom for them has never changed but ive been more of a DBSK fan.. specifically jaejoong fan. GAWD im loooooooving him more and more each day ooops sorry soon-to-be boyfriend haha. i will never forget the way he slaps the other four LOLLLL it looks weird but he seems so gentle (haha see soul fighter couple talk and you'll know what im talking about). dont get me wrong! he just looks so gentle and delicate (like what changmin said) and it makes me looooove him more for that nyahahhahaa. another thing i will never forget about him is the way he covers his mouth when he laughs (awww so much like lee junki! no wonder he was asked to play junki's role in the king's men parody) haha it's so cute for him to do that! i was actually trying to figure out when he changed his hair color from blonde to black to off-white (if there's such hair color hehe) but i realized it seems like they're changing his hair color as often as they release a new single (which is almost every month!)

but i still looooooove NewS!!!! i love ryo, yamapi (bleh ella!) and tegoshi like i always do hekhekhek

though i couldnt celebrate this event through ways that one could think of, ive done something in my own little way..haha somethin life-changing for me of course. it's a secret though. it's for me to know and for the rest to find out if they can ^____^

did lee jun ki really say that...

i've been reading a lot about this... i just thought to make a comment
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justfilipina Says:
July 13th, 2007 at 10:53 pm

Someone reported:

About Lee Joon Ki, He screamed racism and uncouthness about the Philippines and Pinays.
Here is the Article:

LJK DECLARES PHILIPPINES “MORON-FILLED NUTHOLE”

After a press conference for his latest movie “Guess Who’s Coming to Dinner? An Effeminate Korean Guy, That’s Who!” Lee Jun Ki made some informal remarks that have sent shockwaves through the Phillipines.

“The Phillipines are sh!ts”, Lee remarked.

When asked to clarify himself, Lee continued, “It’s a sh!t country. Bad food, the women are ugly, and the whole place smells like old lettuce. I’ve never met a Filipino that I didn’t want to punch in the face. I swear, it’s like they have a dumbass-making factory over there.”

As he spoke about his deep hatred of the Philippines, Lee became more animated, frequently brushing back his long black hair and adjusting the frilly collar on his pink shirt. It was suspected that he had become tipsy from too much pomegranate juice.

“You know who are the worst?” he asked rhetorically. “The young Filipina girls. The ones around 13 and 14 who watch my movies. Christ, they are ugly. Like little trolls. I hate their knobby little faces. When they come up to me in Korea and ask for autographs, I say “Go back under the bridge, you little monsters!””

Lee then suggested renaming the Philippines and proposed several new names such as “the nutsappines”, “Crotch Island”, and “the United States of Boner Hounds"

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hehe this rumor was like a year ago or so.. first off, i havent heard of that movie or that he’s making a movie which has that title ^____^

moving on.. i dont wanna comment on that racist thing anymore. that’s a very hot topic; hotter than the hottest celebrity on earth or the korean band HOT lolzz.. everyone has his opinion when it comes to that but it’s a way way bigger issue than just an insulting comment made.so for this matter, i’ll let that racist thing pass.

dont get me wrong, im a filipina 100%! pureblood, not mudblood XD i would have been hurt had i heard anyone say that but i would like to believe actors are one of the most (if not the most) pretentious people on earth. that’s why they’re called actors in the first place. they act and portray roles. that's what they're paid for. they would try to mask and hide everything just to give an impression that they are perfect at all times and everyone can look up to them like god or something.. i know someone who worked for abscbn here in the philippines and can attest to that. she has worked behind the cameras so she knows what's real and reel.

lee jun ki is an actor right? why would he drink that whatsoever kind of juice if (especially) he knows he’s gonna have a press conference? that is if he is in his right mind to think of that. if he or anyone would say such things, i dont think he’d say that to a bunch of press people who mindlessly write and print such craps. the crappier it gets, the more money they have (unless they are writers of Desperate Housewives who intentionally made a comment on filipino doctors that was supposedly for their own concept of fun and jokes)

just trying to view it on a different angle. im kinda a fan of lee junki but at the same time im a filipino. i hope you got my point XD and yeah whoever translated the article definitely has a good command for english.. translate it in a more realistic way next time LOLZZZZZZ i can't even translate “Crotch Island”, and “the United States of Boner Hounds" in filipino XD

not-another-dbsk post XD

ok so i've decided to be on-fangirl leave until further notice... i don't know what happened but i suddenly want to upload dbsk pics XD well just some sort of backup-ing some really nice pics. i just chose few coz im lazy to upload all. i dont on any of this. i just came across these pics...

S Mag October - Jaejoong & Yunho Fashion Special

SMagOctober-JaejoongYunhoFashionSpe.jpg (what's that he's reading??)

SMagOctober-JaejoongYunhoFashion-1.jpg (yunho.. period.. hehe)

SMagOctober-JaejoongYunhoFashion-2.jpg

SMagOctober-JaejoongYunhoFashion-3.jpg

SMagOctober-JaejoongYunhoFashion-4.jpg (i dont know but i like guys who wear sneakers but still look neat..maybe because i have this thinking that sneakers are for rugged-looking people??)

SMagOctober-JaejoongYunhoFashion-5.jpg (there goes the sneakers again!)

SMagOctober-JaejoongYunhoFashion-6.jpg (look at yunho's watch LOLZZZ)

SMagOctober-JaejoongYunhoFashion-7.jpg

SMagOctober-JaejoongYunhoFashion-8.jpg



S Magazine - September (Dong Bang Shin Ki Magical Story)


COVER.jpg - COVER

DongBangShinKiMagicalStory1.jpg (i didnt know yunho is this strong!! haha )

DongBangShinKiMagicalStory2.jpg

DongBangShinKiMagicalStory3.jpg

DongBangShinKiMagicalStory4.jpg

DongBangShinKiMagicalStory5.jpg



P.S. CREDIT GOES TO THOSE WHO NEEDS AND MUST BE CREDITED. i f you don't want these to be posted, just inform me. i'll gladly take them off ^_____^

EDIT EDIT: HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYO - CHAN! ^____^


and ohh plzzz CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHERE IN SINGAPORE(what particular place) CAN I BUY DBSK STUFFS SPECIFICALLY THE ALL ABOUT DBSK DVD plzzzzz I DON'T WANNA BUY IT ONLINE!!!

i've been really a fan of DBSK and NewS but realized that i haven't posted any of their pictures here.. well maybe because i still have that idea that this blog is supposed to be about my rantings and whinings but what can i do when all i whine and rant about is dbsk and NewS lol

ok so i finally decided to post their pics XD honestly i don't collect their pics or any celebrities' pics.. so thanks to ella for the NewS pic. credit goes to all who needs to be credited lol seriously, i thank those people for posting these pics...

this is NewS...


(L-R)(top-bottom) tegoshi, koyama, shige, massu, yamapi, ryo

i personally like yamapi (yeah ella! i can see you making faces! hahah), ryo and tegoshi
i can't finish watching their Never Ending Wonderful Story DVD hahaha it makes me nervous when they show clips that are not in the concert LOL hahahah! don't ask me why plzzzz XD


this is DBSK...


(L-R) junsu, micky, jaejoong, changmin, yunho
(at least that's how i call them.. others call them by their english name)

jaejoong is my current favorite. next would be junsu. i used to like micky when i started fangirl-ing them few weeks back. hands off to changmin because daichy likes him haha and he kinda looks like jerry yan, don't you think so? XD i like yunho too but i have this weird feeling everytime i see him lol coz he really reminds me of the prince in Goong. i forgot his name but yeah, there's something about him that reminds me of Goong. it's not a bad thing but i have this thinking that he acts the same way as the prince. oh yeah i just googled it and his name is joo ji-hoon


P.S. i just saw DBSK's Prince in Prague... darn so hawt photos!!!

ken zhu (the real one)

i uploaded a video of ken zhu during their music party. this is an old vid but this is my favorite of all ken's perf XD i personally ripped this from their vcd that i bought few years back arrrgghh those were the days! i tried uploading it in crunchyroll but it was rejected :( maybe because i put there that i ripped it from their vcd and they got the idea that it's licensed. darn i should have lied or not said anything at all! anyway, this is it...

KEN ZHU - ZI YOU (freedom) - originally by angelica lee





also, ken zhu is here in the philippines to shoot a movie. i saw this vid of him being interviewed while on location. (does the role require him to look not so good!??!)




I AM ON FANGIRL-ING LEAVE TIL SUNDAY AFTER

THIS POST...
( technically it's already saturday hahaha so got one day leave XD )

ken zhu ^_____^

hahaha it seems like this blog will go down to be my all-about-fandomness blog XD XD ohh well what can i do! i can't just go to my friend's house or call them and rant about dbsk and NewS and and lee jun ki and lee hom and all those hawt guys that they havent heard of. damn my friends are so slow when it comes to those things! except for ella and daichy and the rest of my fandom friends. i've tried it a lot of times though. once, i told them about this chinese singer that i like. then i told them about a very good korean group. all i got was "nakasabot ka sa ilang ginasulti?" (can you understand what they're saying?) and all i can say was "no" and then they'll laugh. yeah right! they're nice friends actually. they are just mean! hahahaha i know they can't read this! they are tech morons according to ella hahahah XD XD

ohhh wait i should be mad here XD right! see, if people are like that, if they won't give a damn to songs and artists they don't understand, what will happen to those who can't even speak one single english word? and by the way, who is setting that standard that one should know english to reach out to other parts of the world? look, if they base it on the number of speakers, hell then it should be chinese that must be the standard. it is the most widely-spoken language! or maybe they're using english as an excuse coz chinese is harder to learn!?!

my point is, the lyrics alone doesnt make music. it's just part of it being called music. and music is supposed to be the only language that can break physical boundaries. let's not include music in that racist thing. music should be the language that everyone can understand. darn how can you understand what you dont understand if you dont listen to them at all???

ughh i hate it when i get too serious with anything that's related to my fandomness! it makes me think they're too good for my body and soul when in reality they are not XD XD fandomness is poison! it kills you day by day, but you can't get away with it ^____^


damn im supposed to write about ken zhu! hahaha

to fangirl or not to fangirl!?!

i seriously think i am too old to be a fangirl.. all my friends in crunchyroll are 7-8yrs younger than me! they're even younger than my younger brother! i mean, we listen to the same type of music, like the same boybands.. there must be something wrong with me! oh yeah, i remember my trainers before used to call be bebe what a great excuse for not knowing my name! hahaha probably that's why... ohh whatever! that won't stop me from being a fangirl! =D


HERE HERE I GOT MYSELF A CLUBBOX!! wheeeee!!!



and im downloading newS for ella! we're always having problems with megaupload because of that "bandwidth limit exceeded" thing so clubbox is the solution! hahaha its way better than using MU since there's no download limit. only that you have to wait for the other file to finish and start another one. YOU DONT HAVE TO WAIT 8 LONG HOURS TO DOWNLOAD!!!^___^ the ave. speed is kinda slower but its worth the wait =D im using flashget for MU downloads and i can use it together with clubbox and the download speed is not affected :D clubbox is in korean but all you need is simple english or at least be able to understand pictures for instructions and then that's it! XD XD im trying to consider downloading videos from youtube, convert them then join them together so subs can be added.. but im yet to find out. i'll try it later after this =D


and while waiting for all the downloads to finish, im watching lee jun ki's giordano CF which is a year old now.. i remember it was released when i was still in college and if ill count it, i think i've watched this like a thousand times now hahahaha i swear! i cant get over that CF! he's sooo hawt there! with all the dancing and the slapping of the face and his smile... hahahaha... see that?? i hope he won't get tired of dancing hahaha HAWWWT!






ohhh and KEN ZHU of F4 (or JVKV) "is here in the philippines to shoot an independent filmin Batanes with a local actress Iza Calzado. HE IS STILL RUGGEDLY HANDSOME AS EVER! AWWWWW ^_____^

"Zhu, who starred in the “Meteor Garden” and “Meteor Rain” television series arrived at the Ninoy Aquino International Airport (NAIA) Wednesday morning. He is expected to board a private jet to Batanes Island. He will be working with Filipina actress Iza Calzado and actor Joem Bascon in a project that brings Taiwanese and Filipino talent together. Ken plays the role of a stranded fisherman from Taiwan. Iza will portray a Manila sales girl who relocates to Batanes, and is torn between Ken and an Ivatan portrayed by Joem." http://www.mukamo.com/f4s-ken-zhu-arrives-in-the-philippines/

it's a miracle! =D

my vids, well, technically, they're not mine but the vids i uploaded in crunchyroll were approved! *clap clap* ^___^

here look! (click on the images to view the vids.. but you need to login first)





*applause* hahaha and btw, that's my username in crunchyroll.. "leissen" so if you have a heart (whether big or small) buddy meeeeeeeeeee! =D


and OMG! i didnt know that charice pempengco, the one who went to star king and met suJu, was the one in Little Big Star! O________O yaaaaaayyy swerte nya! they said she was invited to Korea.. hwawwww! kelan naman kaya ako maiinvite dun hhhmmm... XD


and for the real miracle... **drum roll** MY MONITOR IS BACK TO NORMAL!!!! wheeeeeeeeeeeee! ^______________^

~LOLZ! DBSK made me know the virginia tech massacre hahaha only because Micky of DBSK is from Virginia and he mentioned discrimination XD and one of the killer's suitemate is kinda cute hahaha ~lolz ^___^ but i refuse to comment about the massacre. it's kinda late to do that, aint it? i'll just stick with DBSK XD XD

~LOLZ

imagine me... wearing glasses.. with shades.. at 7:58 PM.. while typing this.. right now..


hahahah i know im making a fool out of myself! but what can i do??? my monitor isn't working since this morning. well it's working but the red color is so dominant that everything in it looks red ~lolz! now i can say that i certainly dont believe in karma.. why? i've been good eversince! and look what happened to me! hahaha last monday, my cpu, now my monitor! O____O maybe this is the effect of my whining on the previous post?? i just visited ozzie's multiply and this is what happened! blame it on ozzie da debil ~lolzzz oooppppsss another karma might be coming now that i said that! hahahaha


ampogeeeeeee! *dies* ^___^


i figured out it is easy to create gifs in my shitty monitor if it's for someone so hawt! ~lolz =))

read at your own risk!

amphhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!




where did all my friends go now that i need them?? or do i have friends that i can ask for help? i guess not! shit! installer lang man akong kinanglan! dili isa ka million! dili man ko mangulit kung dili nako kinanglan kaayu! i know you all! who would care if it's not that urgent?? no one! kung dili pa kamatayon, walay makialam. really bites! MY GOD! I HAVE A WORK TO DO! I HAVE A DEADLINE TO MEET! THAT'S WHY I NEED IT NOW! NOT TOMORROW, NOT THE NEXT DAY, BUT NOW! kung manginanglan mo, mutabang baya ko! no matter how hard it is! im sorry to say that but it's true. maybe you dont realize it.. i didnt realize it.. until now. yeah right! you have your own reasons! i dont care what you say kay naglagot ko! i dont do this often but i have to do this now coz im mad. grabe sa kadaghan nako na gitext, wala jud nireply! shit! nevermind!


NOTE: this is my blog so i don't care what you say! and to those who can't understand all the words there, it's definitely not for you ^___^ GAAAAAAHHH I MISS RUTHIE! huhuhu ate ruth, as much as i would want to have a wrinkle-free face like yours when im 39, i dont think i can still keep smiling when im mad :( i guess i cant have your talent ate! but im trying! :D imishooooo ate ruth! and ate lai, leira, debbie, mamee, cherryfer, dani bear,aubrey.. and the rest of the xl team! ^____^


AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANI BEAR! ^________^ haha how ironic that i can still greet you and im sooooooo mad!


**NOW I HAD TO EDIT THE FONT COLOR! HAHAHA THIS USED TO BE RED BUT MY MONITOR ISN'T WORKING PROPERLY t___t

introducing my favorite rock band...

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE! **applause applause**

with gerard (vocals), mikey (bass), frankie (rhythm guitar), ray (lead guitar) and bob (drums)

they were once a typical struggling rock band formed in new jersey until well, they became what they are now. their songs are mostly punk rock, rock, alternative rock and some mellow (for me, that is.. and according to a docu, there must be one mellow song in every rock band's album). some label them as emo or sellouts (the hell i care what they say!haha)

in an interview, they were told that they are the cleanest rock band so far on the face of the earth LOL i was shocked as they are! LOL! and their reaction was "you mean in terms of hygiene??" :P for all i know, they are no more than the typical bands out there who dont take a bath or brush their teeth or change clothes as often as they should be just to project the rockstar image! with all the tattooes and the piercings covering their bodies! (though frankie is the "dirtiest" when it comes to tattooes and piercings in mcr) the interviewer explained that they are the cleanest because they don't use drugs or drink alcohol. (i was like, oh really??) gerard became sober few years ago after he almost died due to too much alcohol and the others just followed him (aww bless them!) but they still smoke and drink coffee and have lotzz of women, maybe.. who knows. that's just what the news says and i believe the news! :D

gee and mikey were already married (nainggit ata si gee kay mikey! amf! and hopefully will be divorced soon! hahaha LOLZ), frankie is engaged to his gf for 10 yrs (wow!), ray and bob are the most hardworking in the band (hahaha i dont know much about them).. frankie is the youngest technically, but mikey is their little brother since he is the lil bro of gee. frankie and gee had some "kissing scenes" which can be found on youtube, but they are not gay! (TO THOSE WHO ARE SAYING THAT THEY'RE GAY, LIKE I CARE! GO TO HELL! EAT SHIT! **bleh bleh :P **) gee also made a cover of rhianna's umbrella, which is also on youtube. mind you, he sings it hotter and hornier than rhianna does! =)

the reason why i like them more than the rest, (i like asian kung fu generation, fall out boy, PATD, taking back sunday and many moooore!) is because mcr is my anti-depressant (refer to previous post).. their songs uplift me when im down.. parang ecstasy! hahaha.. right now, my favorite is their "im not ok (i promise) and "thank you for the venom". more than the looks (yeah, i find them good-looking :P mikey is the most good-looking of them all, next is gee and then frankie then either bob or ray LOL), i can't say that they have the best songs in the whole wide world. they are just my favorite. that's it!

im keeping my fingers and my legs crossed that they will someday come to pinas for a concert. not so soon, though. some other time if i have enough money to be there ^___^

i need anti-depressants!!

i woke up at the wrong side of the bed and havent recovered until now >.< im not in the mood for anything.. not even stupid jokes and most especially, i dont want to hear whinnings and complains and problems and whatever it is that you have! i just need a Windows XP SP-2 installer and Adobe After Effects, Corel Draw , Corel Painter, Corel photo editor, tablets.. etc etc (ampooootah ng seminar! nainggit ko sa ilang software pero mas nainggit ko sa ilang talent! shit!) and if you don't have that, stay away!


here comes my anti-depressant! omg, who would have thought that the screaming of my chemical romance would be a very good anti-depressant for me O___O (for those who know me, they know that when i'm down, i'll listen to MCR scream at the top of their lungs until my ears would almost explode or until ill feel better.. at least, that's the purpose. although at some point, it doesnt work i.e. when i was doing my thesis/SP and when i was so tired with work.

gerard has the most "comforting" voice ever! it's ironic but it works for me. i usually listen to "im not ok (i promise)" and "thank you for the venom". it is obviously not with the lyrics, i think it is more with the rhythm of the songs. since they are too upbeat, it somehow uplifts my spirit ( i think! ) and more about the way they look! hahaha (they are good-looking for me esp. mikey way ^__^, so who cares if they're not for you??). it is better than using ecstasy or alcohol or drugs, right? :P after listening to them like a hundred times, i'll feel better. hopefully it'll work now..

PS: im thinking of making a post about them.. hhhhmmm.. after all, they're my favorite rock band.AND TO THOSE TELLING ME THEY'RE GAY, WELL, GO TO HELL! WHO NEEDS YOUR DUMB OPINION, BTW??

the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you
yeah, i got over you


OVER YOU by DAUGHTRY



download it here :D


i was planning to change the layout AGAIN! haha but i came across this song while browsing my friend's myspace... just for the record, I CAN'T RELATE TO THIS SONG! :P

nyahahahaha :P

random

gaaaah even when choosing a title, i still cant make up my mind :((


i've been having some random ( but not to be ignored) thoughts lately. i, together with one of my friends, aubrey, will be leaving the company 2 weeks from now. others already left without our knowledge, btw.


this is another great decision that i had to make. aubrey will leave the company for dubai. it ain't that hard for her to decide, right? where she goes is better than what she has now. but me, im leaving the company to look for another job. look, that is, i dont know where to go yet. seems like i'll be back again to where i was before i decided to give the job a try. this brought me a looooot of tears (without everybody knowing). i keep on reassessing myself but still i can't find any other reasons to stay other than BIG salary i get every month.


it always hurts me to hear other people telling me "bat ka aalis? wala ka namang pupuntahan. akala ko sanay ka sa graveyard? parang di ka naman taga-UP nyan! akala ko sanay ka sa pressure kasi taga UP ka!" and i just don't say anything to them. they may be right.


OT: whenever nobody replies to my text, i'd think that im not that important to them. when nobody pm's me in ym, i'd think that they're thinking that it's just me so why bother reply. i know i will not be missed nor remembered when i leave the company, unlike aubrey. i know i am "talentless". i know im not one of those drop-dead-gorgeous girls. i know i dont have the confidence that others have. i admit that and it took all my confidence to admit that.


that's me. i always listen to what others think and say.my decisions always have always been affected by how others see it. But i realized that what made me decide to work in that company is not mainly because of others' opinions. coz it is, i would have announced to everyone that i got that job. but, it's the opposite. i don't have the courage to tell everyone what i got. im ashamed that they will again criticize my decision. i decided to have that job coz it is easier than the one i have in mind. yes, it's true. the one i want is way way way difficult than the one i have. and i am scared that it would take time for me to reach what i want so i settled for the easier one. and this is all i get now. the urge to resign...


my resignation would'nt mean that i can't handle the job because i know that i definitely can. it would'nt mean that i can't take that much pressure because as far as i know, i can handle pressure better than those i know. (and i know myself better than anyone else). it would'nt mean that i'll be wasting my time regretting for the decision i made. i want to do a lot of things. i want to make my own decisions to be where i want to be. i want to do things for myself and not for other people. i may not know where im going now but i'll figure it out.


so im sorry if you believe i dont listen to what you all have to say. like i said, im more stubborn than you know i am. i would go for what i want but sometimes im scared and most of the time i think of what others say and think about me. this is my life after all.


and i've found a solution to all my problems. whenever im scared and hopeless, i'd kneel down and pray. and i'll start doing it today... ^___^

work sucks >.<

"i know.. she left me roses by the stairs, surprises let me know she cares.." - blink 182 haha

yeah while waiting for my mom (who bought my oh-so-favorite spaghetti), might as well rant here hahaha

why? because work suuuuuuuucksssssss! enough said!

aaaaand i wanna have a taste of that (quoting my friend daichy) they-did-not-do-anything-out-of-the-extraordinary concert of fall out boy! only if this goddamn youtube works! aaarrrrgggghhhh!


and im missing my life! ( the life that i used to have though it wasn't as much of a life at all) and i want it baaaaack now! and im missing someone! **blush** gaaaaahhh cheesy! hahaha mind you, i don't admit it that often hahaha

my mom's here now! wheeeeee! ***out eating spageteeeee***

what was that???

last night, when i went back after my 2-day "vacation", guess how many calls i had!!! ***drum roLL*** FORTY CALLS! how's that for a welcome back party??? from zero, to five then now to FORTY??? they surely missed me that much! O___________O



and i wanna go to that dinner with motty and the rest of the surgical team! haha T________T

see that?

i saw that in bianca gonzalez' page. though it's a cliche, it's easier said than done. probably only less than half of those who say it believe that it is true. and only half of that half have done or is doing it. me? i wanna be in the half of that half. "wanna be".. means im not yet there :|

gray

maybe im way too emotional that nobody gets to notice it. not even my blog. i change layouts very often. sometimes it's colorful and sometimes it's dull. but the content? it's stil the same. there's no emotion in it. you cannot decipher what i was thinking when i wrote every entry in here. just like this one. this is just one of those. can you tell that that i felt guilty because i was stalking on someone before i wrote this? no, you cannot. can you tell that i have been/ am / will be crying until i can stand up for what i want? no, you cannot. my friends always tell me to update my blog. but i dont do it often because i dont want to rant and to whine and to complain. i also dont want to shout to the world my happiness, my sadness, my frustrations, my admirations, my fandomness which are normally the subjects of blogs. i dont want to do anything with my emotions but to keep it to myself.

now, i want change. char! haha! nabuang nah!

the receptionist called me and gave me my new sked.. so these are the times that i'll be out of reach (unless i call in sick which i love doing)

MON - WED 9PM - 7AM
THURS OFF
FRI 9PM - 7AM
SAT 9PM - 5AM
SUN OFF

but i'll be resigning in a month or so.. >.<

lalelilolu

...me pera ka nga, wala ka namang kasama.

nah! it's their loss.not mine! i'd better go back to sleep then go to hell..errr.. work later.

Maybe it's time for me to learn the art of forgetting people coz it seems like everbody's so good at it now.

wala ka ngang kasama, me pera ka naman... ^___^

this is worth a post!

ANYONE GOT QQ? yes QQ! haha! just like icq, msn, ym.. ^__^ a friend i met through myspace introduced me to QQ. his name is gaoxiang :D i had a really hard time looking for an english installer for that (yes, coz it's in chinese) and the worst was registering an account! (because, yes, it's in chinese too)..and i walked myself through it! whheeew! ^__^ and now ive got a QQ account.. hahaha!

happy birthday to me!

YEAH! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEE..... ^____^ im officially legal! haha.. i mean, of legal age to.. to.. to.. i don't know! lol

OK! (right arm: raised, swearing position)I PROMISE TO
KEEP THIS BLOG UP AND RUNNING UNTIL MY LAST BREATH! ooops! that's too much of a promise! haha!
ok, I'll keep this up until I possibly can! better?


SOME RANDOM STUFFS:

1. just found out that I have to sign in with my google account here on blogspot.. good thing I have one! yey!
does this mean google also bought blogspot (cause I heard they bought youtube that's why more and more vids are getting deleted
each day! yay!)


2. there are like 63 of us on friendster!


3. been reading blogs of some "famous" people ^__^ but i read blogs of the not-so-famous too! :D


4. im planning to change the template! (emphasis on PLANNING! haha) coz i'll be learning ( future progressive tense, that is!)
more of php-mysql-html-javascript-flash-photoshop. name it! hahaha


5. its been 9 months since my last update! NOW IM BACK TO BLOGGING! wheeee