yayay...

aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh EMOTIONAL STRESS! TT_____________TT

if there's too much of these in life, who would want to live!?! anti-depressants, where are yousssssssssssss??????

strike two for this year TT____TT i just hope these would all make me become better..and not worse. sana next yr naman ung next :'(



*kung ang lahat ay may katapusan, itong paglalakbay ay makakarating din sa paroroonan...

some thoughts

It's a sad reality how people sometimes think less of others. It's the price others have to pay for believing that people won't do that to them. But given the capacity and not doing so is an entirely different thing. It's a noble thing to do.


hahaay.. i didn't know men are worst than i thought.

finally! i found peace of mind in watching gossip girl ^___^ weird but i couldn't care less.this is all i need.



* the sun will come out tomorrow..like your boyfriend did today - Gossip girl to jenny, after everyone found out her bf is gay.


**ahh di ko maisip na masisira na blog ko sa ads! cge lng..all for the money. i'll be transferring to a new site soon.

because i can't sleep

i've been wondering why i stopped counting how long i've been at work. the post i had was my 11th month at work. i just had my 15th so that's four posts behind.

is it because i'm enjoying what i do now? is it because i'm already counting how many days left before i leave work? or is it because my mind is too preoccupied of something else?

i've been wanting to leave work. but i can't leave just like that. i don't want to leave just because of some lame reasons i cannot handle. i am "feeling"things.i should be rational and not emotional dammit! i should see things like adults do.

HAPPY 15TH dessie!


**titingnan ko kung pwde ako mgkapera sa blog na 'to.. madudumihan na ang blog ko huhuhu cge lng..all for the money and boredom.. ill just delete everything later..

wishing just the same

i wish i can wish that i won't be wishing for friends. that i can watch movies alone, go home alone, go to the mall alone, travel alone, with nothing else to mind but myself.

i wish i won't be waiting for replies. that i can change my numbers every time, that i won't be calling people whenever they don't reply, that i can switch off my phone whenever i want.

i wish i know how to forget people. that if they don't talk to me for some time, i'll easily forget them.

i wish i won't ever feel like i'm being taken for granted. that if they need me, i'll be right there and if they don't i'll disappear just like that.

i wish i don't value relationships that much. that i won't mind if you're my friend now and tomorrow you'll be a totally different person. that i won't mind when people just come and go.

i wish i don't have friends na nang-iiwan sa ere. yung they'll be there whenever they don't have anyone elso to go with, but if they'll find someone else, they wouldn't mind who you'll be with, what would you do..

i wish i'm not wishing for constant friends. that i can be with just anyone who can be there for me.

i wish i can wish that i am a loner. that i won't want to be around people but myself.


...JUST BECAUSE I WANTED SOOOOOOO BADLY TO WATCH HALF-BLOOD PRINCE ON THE FIRST WEEK!!!! and i don't want to watch it alone..because it would be a lot more fun if i watch it with friends. THAT FRIGGING HARRY POTTER THAT'S NOTHING MORE THAN JUST CRAP! i've been wallowing all day for just that!?!! it was worst than i expected! hahaaay life is harsh TT____TT