wala naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! ggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh


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WTF!

now i know why dec 31, 2009 and jan 2, 2010 are special days.. dec 31 is a blue moon and jan 2 is a palindrome (01022010).. but these days are memorable for me because these days are my most hurtful days :'( f**tah emo!

2009 run-down

worst experience:
got too drunk and puked
** this happened first week sa 2009 pa hahahaha!

greatest achievement:
travels
** been to different places.. manila, enchanted kingdom, tagaytay (nasaag pa mi! LOL), cebu, bohol

best emotion felt:
love
** hehe char! it feels so good to love and be loved, though it may not last for long.. love is a moment, so they say..

worst emotion felt:
love parin
** ang ups and downs grabe! hehe but im not complaining..not at all :)

best gift
friends and more than that (haha ano kaya un?) who made me feel really special

best part of the year
august to december
** hahaha specific kaau! pinaka memorable na experiences happened within these months :) christmas ang best day of the year hehehe :P

....to be continued


ano ba yan parang slum book! hahahaha it's been a while. i kinda missed writing about my stuffs..i often do this when im depressed..yeah, you're right! i am now..how could an almost happy ending be gone in a snap hahay yayay akong heart. i just hope everything will be back to normal soon TT_____TT it was my fault, i know.. but i cant say sorry over and over again. pero sorry naaaaaaaaaaaaaah..lets give it a try one more time TT_________TT

WELCOME 2010!!!!!!!!

thank you Lord for another great year. my 2009 was by far the best! thank you for the people who came along the way and made my year more meaningful. may this new year be a memorable one as well.

WELCOME 2010!!!!!!!!!!!


cheers! to moving forward and leaving all the baggage behind! ^______^

dear diary

"it was just a simple request and yet you could not do it. how can i weigh things when you ask too much and give a little too less? how can we call it fair when you can't even give a little while i can give too much?"
--from the diary of a whimpy kid

wow galing naman ng kid! tsktsk ang buhay ay sadyang ganyan.suliranin di mapigilan. itanim mo lng sa iyong puso, kaya mo yaaaaan! hihi.

life is a choice. you can choose fair or you can choose big. im choosing fair! wahahahahahahaha out nagma-mindset! :P

burn out

is being tested emotionally

is not going to fight back just yet

is giving herself a break

is tired of too much thinking

is not being rational until she can be...

is going to pen down her thoughts whenever she can..but not now..not yet

yayay...

aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh EMOTIONAL STRESS! TT_____________TT

if there's too much of these in life, who would want to live!?! anti-depressants, where are yousssssssssssss??????

strike two for this year TT____TT i just hope these would all make me become better..and not worse. sana next yr naman ung next :'(



*kung ang lahat ay may katapusan, itong paglalakbay ay makakarating din sa paroroonan...

some thoughts

It's a sad reality how people sometimes think less of others. It's the price others have to pay for believing that people won't do that to them. But given the capacity and not doing so is an entirely different thing. It's a noble thing to do.


hahaay.. i didn't know men are worst than i thought.

finally! i found peace of mind in watching gossip girl ^___^ weird but i couldn't care less.this is all i need.



* the sun will come out tomorrow..like your boyfriend did today - Gossip girl to jenny, after everyone found out her bf is gay.


**ahh di ko maisip na masisira na blog ko sa ads! cge lng..all for the money. i'll be transferring to a new site soon.

because i can't sleep

i've been wondering why i stopped counting how long i've been at work. the post i had was my 11th month at work. i just had my 15th so that's four posts behind.

is it because i'm enjoying what i do now? is it because i'm already counting how many days left before i leave work? or is it because my mind is too preoccupied of something else?

i've been wanting to leave work. but i can't leave just like that. i don't want to leave just because of some lame reasons i cannot handle. i am "feeling"things.i should be rational and not emotional dammit! i should see things like adults do.

HAPPY 15TH dessie!


**titingnan ko kung pwde ako mgkapera sa blog na 'to.. madudumihan na ang blog ko huhuhu cge lng..all for the money and boredom.. ill just delete everything later..

wishing just the same

i wish i can wish that i won't be wishing for friends. that i can watch movies alone, go home alone, go to the mall alone, travel alone, with nothing else to mind but myself.

i wish i won't be waiting for replies. that i can change my numbers every time, that i won't be calling people whenever they don't reply, that i can switch off my phone whenever i want.

i wish i know how to forget people. that if they don't talk to me for some time, i'll easily forget them.

i wish i won't ever feel like i'm being taken for granted. that if they need me, i'll be right there and if they don't i'll disappear just like that.

i wish i don't value relationships that much. that i won't mind if you're my friend now and tomorrow you'll be a totally different person. that i won't mind when people just come and go.

i wish i don't have friends na nang-iiwan sa ere. yung they'll be there whenever they don't have anyone elso to go with, but if they'll find someone else, they wouldn't mind who you'll be with, what would you do..

i wish i'm not wishing for constant friends. that i can be with just anyone who can be there for me.

i wish i can wish that i am a loner. that i won't want to be around people but myself.


...JUST BECAUSE I WANTED SOOOOOOO BADLY TO WATCH HALF-BLOOD PRINCE ON THE FIRST WEEK!!!! and i don't want to watch it alone..because it would be a lot more fun if i watch it with friends. THAT FRIGGING HARRY POTTER THAT'S NOTHING MORE THAN JUST CRAP! i've been wallowing all day for just that!?!! it was worst than i expected! hahaaay life is harsh TT____TT