11th month @ work.. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaw that was fast! 1 month more and i'll fulfill my promise to stay for at least a year.
the previous weeks were miserable (not work-related though). i am being tested emotionally. i failed, i cried, i stumbled and fall..and if there's one thing i learned, that is, giving your trust would also mean giving them the power to hurt you, and giving your trust doesn't mean earning their trust as well.
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yesterday, i watched "shopaholic". it was fun. it's about a woman who shops to make herself feel better. shopping gives her a different kind of excitement that she tends to forget about her worries and when she's done shopping, she would feel down again and that would make her want to shop more.
yesterday, i also went to church, which, in other words, means that my thoughts are too deep for me to comprehend that i had to go to church to have peace of mind for a while and reconsider my thoughts afterwards.